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4 Sleeps till forever.

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So I technically started this posted on Monday (I titled it at least) but am writing it on Tuesday. It sounds better with 4 so we stick with it. 🙂

This is it, the last Monday morning drive into work without my babe being on the other side. This is been a very long journey together, we have learned a lot and grown even closer as a couple. When I started this blog I knew that it was about my time with Jayme, how when the time was right, that I would propose to her and provide her with the gift of me forever (and some type of ring-like figure as well). I never thought that throughout this journey that I would be able to be loved and love so intensely. I know now that I am ready to make this official, but I think my babe needs a little more time to figure out what our engagement would look like. So We will continue this journey no longer in two separate locations, but together, under the same roof, with the same bed, and behind the same door.

Sunday’s have been tough, even when we are together we know our time is short and it is like a cloud hanging over us. But this Sunday will be something magical, because even though I have to go in work, I know my babe will be at our home.   We have always been in a state of transition, stability has not been a luxury we have been afforded, but that all changes in 4 sleeps.  The tender love of the same woman who saved a baby bunny this weekend, will be with me from this day forward.

So even though I haven’t found a job closer to home, or Jayme doesn’t have one at all, or the fact that we are massively in debt, we have the one most absolutely pivotal piece to happiness. Real, genuine, unfiltered, love on the rocks. Its not dolled up or diluted by selfishness and jealousy, It is pure and simple. It is ours to enjoy and hold sacred. We might have plenty of other problems to solve, but in 4 sleeps… we have forever to figure it out.

The left: The sun setting on my first time leaving Jayme

The Right: The Sun rising on my last time leaving the love of my life.

197 Miles

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One nine seven. That is the number of miles away I helped to relocate Jayme to this last weekend. She will be completing her internship a state away for the next 3 1/2 months. This is going to be a trying experience for us but also one we can use as an opportunity to grow closer as a couple.

This “last weekend” together started like all the others, in my car on the way back from my work and her internship. we talked, laughed, and made silly sounds between deep conversations. We met Jayme’s parents out for dinner and then proceeded to pack away her life for the early morning drive. That night we did our best to reassure each other that things were going to be fine and that our love is never-ending. It is sometimes hard to accept that this girl, has the feels so strongly for  a guy like me.

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The roads were clear, the weather good, and the unpacking went off without a hitch. After her parents left I busted out a bottle of Bubbly and we had a true new apartment experience and drank champagne as we unpacked her place. Later we sat around just chatting about whatever came up. Her inquisitive nature is one thing that I could never get tired of. Everything felt very first date-esque. We rounded out the night with walking to pick up a pizza and a few rental movies. a mundane way to spend the evening, but in all honesty, I have learned all I need is her next to me to make any night magical.

The next day was hard. over the last two weeks we spent as much time together as possible (and it was amazing, but come on she is the love of my life so how couldn’t it be). Now we were starting the next chapter. a chapter that is highlighted by the numbers 1, 9, 7. As we laid in bed after a nap and I prepared to leave I kept thinking how dumb this all was. I will see her each weekend, we will talk on the phone, text throughout the day, video chat, we will have constant communication thanks to dating in the digital age. But the one thing that cannot be connected though screens is the feeling of holding the woman you love in your arms as she drifts to sleep. So maybe those feelings of nervous detachment are not so strange after all.

As I drove off the sun was setting in my rearview mirror, I then imagined that same sunset and how different it will look when I am no longer taking this trip alone, when I am bringing back with me the most precious cargo in the shotgun seat next to me. That will be a sunset like no other.

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Side note: full disclosure there is a  Taco John’s near Jayme’s new place and I feel that my potato Ole intake is going to increase to dangerous levels, so watch my waistline grow along with my love over the next 4 months 🙂