So I just finished up a few evening games of Rocket League. If you are unaware, Rocket League is a game where you drive a car with rocket boosters and try to score a large ball in your opponents goals by ramming your car into it. It sounds awesome because it is. I usually play with friends (REALLY I DO) but tonight I flew solo and listened to one of Jayme’s playlist that she created when we first started dating. It is always nice to be reminded of how deep our feelings have been since we started this journey together. There has been no doubt, there has been no epic fights, or even fleeting moments of concern. Jayme has been committed to me, to the idea of us since we first sat down for that night of Bingo. I am struck with that realization every time I listen to this playlist, look-back at pictures, or reminisce about our message strings.

The rain is falling right now, hard drops, soft drops, drops that splash, and drops that trickle. I close my eyes and listen to this song and I can see it, the moment I have been thinking about for so long, The moment when we realize what we have been moving towards. The day I get to hold her hand and ask her to take mine from now and for always. I see watching the rain on lazy Sundays, I see playing in puddles with a future family, I see driving through a storm with her by my side, secure and safe together.

My nights often end like this, at the computer writing about the woman who sleeps feet behind the white door. Trying to do right by her, to her, I am the man she believes me to be, the man she needs me to be. She might still be out of me league, but something tells me I will be climbing the leader-board real soon 🙂