I just had another one of those “I can’t breathe moments”. I get these sometimes. It started in Texas, when I was in my internship and forever away from family. I was told that I have anxiety. Every since that day I have managed that by cold air, sipping water, and taking my mind off of life. It works pretty well. The feeling I just got though was not induced by anxiety, but by Jayme. Readying through my posts I came to this one. after reading it and listening to some of the music tied to the nearby posts, I couldn’t fill my lungs, I felt like my heart was losing a race to nowhere. Our life was so simple, so perfectly simple. It was just about our love. We have had the amazing opportunity to know that all we need is love. That no matter what happens, as long as we have each other we will weather the storm. Build a life from nothing, win the lottery, lose it all, they are all the same as long as they include my darling.

Today I was walking back from a meeting outside. The fresh air is always a pleasant change for me. I felt the cool breeze and was just so lifted in my position in life. Jayme is to thank for all of that. She gives me life and supports me everyday. I am growing more impatient by the day to ask her to be mine. I am sure my salesperson is tired of my weekly emails, but whatever I can do to speed up the process is good for me.

I know someday you will read this Jayme, someday soon, and all I want to say right now is this. You are it for me, you always will be. I will be your best friend forever and cannot wait to grow old with you.