the Saying is one that used to be on a shirt my Dad owned. It was purple and gold and was meant for our Minnesota Vikings. It was the idea that, no matter how the team may look, we can still win, and this year can be our year. (so side note, all of this was written days before the Teddy ACL thing, sorry for the jinx Vikings nation).

Anyways, I think that idea of belief is an important one for a relationship to have, and it is something that me and Jayme share. We believe not only in each other, but in us. The idea that that we are more then the sum of our parts. We both have strengths that are powerful defining features of us (Jayme’s serenity and kindness, My energy and excitement) but the interesting thing is, when we are able to come together and shed those personal identities and become completely one, we are an example of reliance and faith in the power of love, and that is something I would never trade.

So we believe in us and our ability to be better together, to weather storms together, but we also believe in all of that, now. Some might tell me that I should have waited to jump so headlong into this relationship, taken things slower, not opened up so much. With Jayme though, I just, I just knew. there was no “trial period” or time I didn’t believe in us. The story of us is unique to who we are as people independently, but more importantly, who we are together. So just like the Vikings and that tattered old shirt my dad has, we believe in now.

Oh and on the Vikings side of things,  we got to go to a private event at US Bank Stadium! I even taught Jayme to sing this!

What a weekend, Jayme got to see Luke Bryan and he didn’t disappoint, we had a trip to watch my nephew, and had a big bash for my friend’s birthday. It was a great time and spent too much money on even more fun. But this story is not about those things, no, this is about our existence and the many delineations of it that exist. (look for the asshole with the stupid bent neck to find me).

Me and Jayme have finished watching “stranger things” on Netflix and it introduces the idea of multiple universes that exist. That there are an infinite possibilities of existence that are happening all at once. So for instance, there is a world where I am a fighter pilot who has a pet giraffe that fights crime.  The point is, in one of these worlds I am the happiest I could possibly be. I mean, I have it ALL. Money, job, cars, however that is defined. and this part is about to get super corny, I think I am in that happiest possible universe. Yeah I could have more money, or better things, or better body, play for the Vikings, control shit with my mind, but I am not convinced those things begat true happiness.

So while all those things are great and could make me happy, I would be without my happiness multiplier, Jayme. See even when things are fun, sharing them with her, makes them greater. she takes the mundane (grocery shopping) and makes it something memorable. So while I could vastly improve upon my life in the physical sense (location, stuff, job), without Jayme, all those improvements are for not.

My happiness is now tied to how big of a smile I can put on that face, the laughs of hers I can hear, the happy tears that I can instigate. While there might be parallel universes, the one I exist in is unparalleled in the happiness it brings.

I have noticed that sometimes when I write I talk about the resolve and strength of our relationship in the context of getting through difficult times, or leaning inwards to be safe and secure with each other. While those are important bits of us, I felt it was time to do a bit of bragging and just be jovial. Yes this blog post will be pure happiness unadulterated with any other feelings.

First off, Jayme’s birthday was last weekend and it went really well! we got to spend Friday with her family playing games and having dinner, and then Saturday morning we were able to grab breakfast together, cuddle on the couch, and generally have a great time before she headed off for a night with her gals. I packed Jayme a surprise cooler full of goodies and from what I gathered they had a great time.

I also got to spend the night with my friends playing Frisbee golf, shooting guns, drinking beers, and singing Karaoke. It was a great time, but also got an extra little birthday gift of my own that night. I got to feel like the girl I am going to someday marry was “dating” me again. what I mean is, being apart led to texting intermittently from our different social events, those early butterflies when reading a message, or getting a Snapchat were there again, reminding me how excited I was when I got a brand new girlfriend. It was a fun reminder of the early times in our texting/flirting/dating life, and just how fortunate we are. Another blessing was being able to go out with my friends and not be “on the hunt” because I already have found the most amazing and beautiful woman of all time (photo evidence disbursed throughout the entire blog).

If last week was good, this weekend should be great! Jayme is headed to the Luke Bryan concert with her mom and sister tonight at US Bank stadium. It should be a great show and with Kim in the same place as Luke Bryan I am eagerly awaiting the stories. Tomorrow we will be heading out to the lake with a group of friends for a birthday celebration, then an evening of beer Olympics. Sunday is a day to recover before Jayme starts working her new job at General Mills.

Sometimes we focus too much on the things that are troubling and forget about all the happiness and good around us. I have been victim of that before and will be in the future, but for this minute, this moment, right now, I only see happy things.

 

 

 

This is one of my favorite pictures of us, I know its been posted before, but beauty knows no bounds on repost right?

 

This is what I am building towards, asking one question, to one woman. The thousands of words I have typed are all meant to be a gift for the one I seek, “yes”. I am not concern about her saying those words, our relationship is full of open communication that lends itself to insights as to how the other feels, and her love is just as strong as mine. We bring out the best in eachother and never tear down what we have been building.

But with all that said, it still is a scary proposition, asking her to take me for me, from this day forward, no matter the storm, no matter the situation. Perhaps this is why I have been struggling to find the perfect way to ask Jayme. Oh I have plenty of ideas, but none ever seem to be able to parallel my feelings I have for her. Perhaps that is the greatest problem I have encountered, having a love that transcends natural and physical manifestations. That what we have cannot be summed up worth any words, actions, or Objects.

But yet I need to find someway to make the moment happen none-the-less, and I have a few ideas to show Jayme how special she is to me. Whether it is a chapel walk late this fall at SJU, Christmas morning, or a bright spring day out at lake Linka, where we will eventual bring this whole story full circle, I am sure of one thing, I have never been more excited for a single moment in my life.

Jayme has come to show me that she is more to myself then I ever knew was there. She has unlocked the best parts of me, and she even cherishes the ones that are still need some polishing. There is never any contingency on her love, or quid pro quo that needs to be satisfied. She gives all of herself, each day, no matter what.  Cynics will say that type of dedication and love is not real, at least not all the time. But they are wrong, this woman is the closest thing to perfection that the world has seen. her love is true and requires only acceptance to exist. This is why I only have one thing left I need to say to her, “will you marry me?”

 

 

 

The title might be kind of cryptic, but Jayme will get it…

Jayme is Employed! Big milestone for us, but more importantly, for my babe. She has been working very hard to find her first place in the big business world, and General Mills won the lottery for the greatest future employee. She is so dedicated, smart, level-headed, the is nothing she won’t be able to do. Times like these are exciting and amazing all at once. The light we have been waiting for finally turns on and our lives are illuminated in such a way that it feels like we are seeing for the first time. All of this change leads to busier lives and more decisions.

Life gets really busy sometimes, not just for the happy things like getting a job, but stress from our work, family squabbles, a serious illness, a number of different events can distract and absorb our lives. But no matter what might be in my life that could be distracting or drawing my focus, all I need is one message, one whisper, one glance from Jayme and all that focus melts away. I am consumed by her in all the ways.

If we ever need to get away and be just us, All we need to do is see the other and melt away. That is a key to our happiness, and its ability to be prolonged for life. We know there will be good and bad, but having a FTB makes it all seem so simple.

Oh also we won our regional Trivia championship and got 5th at state… NBD

 

 

 

 

 

Patience is a virtue that I sometimes lack. I want everything and I want it right now. Whether it is a Vikings Super Bowl win. (this is our our year!) or something more mundane like a chipotle burrito (sooo hungry) I am one who has a hard time waiting, and this is even more true when it comes to Jayme.

See on Mondays all I want is to be home with her still, in bed, cuddling and putting the world on snooze. But I have to go to work and be far away from her. Often on Mondays I am prompted to say things like “I want to listen to Beyoncé and put a ring on it” <-actual message I sent today.  My desire to move on to what is next often over shadows the greatness of where we are. Jayme’s responses to my eagerness is simple and honest “When the time is right 🙂 “. It is not an attempt to slow my excitement or desire, but to remind me that things are great right now and that there is no reason to hope for the future when the present is already a dream.

She might be all I want, but I sometimes forget, that I already have her, and no ring or vow will change that. It is not some type of magical item that will make her love me forever, or even tomorrow, because each day we wake up, we have to choose the person next to us. Our love will last not because of our past or a future promise, but because our love exists in the present, and the rest will come when the time is right.