This is not a post about cuticle care or proper nail trimming techniques. I am talking about thumbnails in a digital sense. In the blog I have been posting pictures of Jayme, times we spend together, things that remind me of her, screen shots from Snapchat and FaceTime. All those pictures are sitting on my desktop (because I am one of those lazy MFers who doesn’t make folders). So no matter what small amount of my desktop is showing, I have a picture I can see of Jayme. They are small so obviously I cannot see all the details, but they provide a great reminder about our life together so far. I can’t believe it all started with one happy hour together. (full disclosure I worked in that line a little early, but to be fair, the song was JUST playing).

Alright, back to thumbnails. The desktop cluttered with memories and work files reminds me about an important part of mine and Jayme’s relationship, our balance. Jayme helps me in so many ways, but one of the biggest ones is she keeps me centered and focused on what really matters. Sure I get down about work, how long my commute is or how no one seems to know how to act professionally, but when I start down that “woe is me” road, she grabs the lantern <—– (A whole other topic), and brings me back to what is important in life.  And to me, those are the moments I get to see, cuddle, kiss, and babe my babe. (for questions about babing, click here).

So when I don’t have my babe at my side, I at least have these thumbnails to remind me about how great my life is. It is astounding sometimes when I look at the countless pictures and remember I have only spent six short months with this woman. I never knew so much love and happiness could be packed into such a short time. Each day I get to spend with Jayme is amazing beyond my wildest dreams, I plan to cherish each one I get with her and make many more thumbnail memories together.

Our world is HUGE. there are Billions of people, Millions of towns and cities, Hundreds of countries, Remote mountain peaks, deep oceans, frozen tundras, Mega cities casting shadows on the land. There is a lot of everything. and if you think about how small our little planet is throughout the galaxy and known universe, really puts life in perspective. I think Carl Sagan said it best here.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b58SfRphkKc

For me, at least right now, one line really sticks out in his speech. “Every young couple in love”. I doubt that was a surprise when looking at the reason for this blog. Those few words are meant to encompass what it means to love and have love. What defines us in life can be many things, how we are remembered by our families and maybe the world can be chalked up to a few moments in time. Maybe it is a great business we created, a beautiful painting, A rebuilt home, sports accolades. In my short time I have accomplished many things, things I am proud of, but there is only one that I want to be remembered for. I want that when my name is thought of by others that the one thing they recount is that, every day,  with every breath, he loved Jayme with all his heart, body, and soul. That all he had was hers and all he did was done with her in mind.

I think about people I know, those who fit the mold of “in love” but for all of them, I feel the tiniest bit of sadness, because my reality tells me that Jayme, the Angel who I call mine, is the most amazing woman that has, or ever will, set foot on that pale blue dot. I know that might sound short sighted being that I have met so few of the 4 billion woman currently walking around this earth. But, to me, that shows the purity and utter amazement that emanates from her glowing smile, brilliant blue eyes, and her graceful soul.

So all I want in this big world is a little life with Jayme, my future Mrs, because, to me, you are the world.