On the Hunt for Love… and Eggs.

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Everyone everywhere is always on the hunt for love, not always for love of a person, but maybe a new favorite pizza, or a job they enjoy, hobby, or whatever it could be. But my hunt for love is over since I found the perfect woman, the one that makes me feel great no matter what the circumstances. She is my life and will be the driving force behind my decisions from this day forward.

Easter was last Sunday, and last Saturday I wanted Jayme to know how much I cared for her. This long distance thing can feel like a job sometimes, and with moving most of her things in that weekend, I thought she deserved a break from the packing, moving, and putting away grind. So the week prior I devised an egg hunt for her around Minneapolis, to places that have meant something to our relationship. Each egg contained  a clue to the next and the last one ended up at Target Field revealing tickets for later in the month.

Below is the notes found in each egg. sorry for the spelling errors and grammar, I was rushed to get it printed before I left work on Friday!

Remember when we got coffee that night after work? I hated coffee, especially when you have to pay 4 bucks a piece! But that was never the reason to go to Caribou, it was to have the opportunity to spend every extra second I could with you, soaking up all the amazing that radiated from you. We sat and chatted like we had been together for years. In ways, we kinda have been. Our souls must have met before, because our connection is far beyond that of anything I have ever experienced. Spending that evening with you I knew that my life was not going to be the same ever again. I had found someone who transcended all that I thought possible. I woman who was all the things I didn’t know I needed to be the best version of me. I love you Muffy.

Clue 2: J.C Cutler might take a walk up this curvy path in the neighboring park. Once you reach the top, look all around, but keep your head down.

 

Ahh the Guthrie, the site of our first photo (credit that huge ass escalator mirror) excessive hand holding and kissing in a fancy locale, and feeling so high I felt like a was in a dream. Every time I see this building or hear someone mention it, I can’t help but get excited thinking about the official kickoff to what would become a once-in-a-generation kind of love. Plays are inspired by real life, heartbreaking tragedies, hilarious experiences and the truest of loves. Don’t be surprised if someday our love story is recounted for the masses (or at least for our two children and 8 dogs). Jayme, every day with you is a blessing, but that day might have been the day I left my heart behind with yours, thanks for taking care of it for me, I would trust no one else with it. 🙂

Clue 3: Look out over the river and you will see a structure as famous as the water it crosses. Plenty of engagement and wedding photos have made this an iconic Minneapolis landmark. Your next egg is below your feet but above the water, good luck finding your bungee-egg!

Stone Arch Bridge! Super cool isn’t it? I ran across this twice when I was running my half marathon. (hopefully it is at least slightly warmer today). I recall crossing this the second time, I was exhausted, less than a mile was left and I felt like I was ready to just drop, give up, but I pushed on. I thought back to the day before how great it was to be with you, spend time meeting your friends, open up my life to a new possibility of true happiness. The world was mine for the taking, and if I could get a woman as amazing as you to fall for me 13.2 miles is nothing. I gave it all I had and beat my time. I was proud of myself, what I was able to accomplish, but the thing that was missing was you. No matter how great of personal accomplishments we have, they are nothing without someone to share them with. I am glad that I have you in my life as my partner and best friend who I can share the good times and the not-so good times with as well. I love you darling.

Clue 4: a three digit number and a booth, if you need more clues then that we have a problem Missy! Hopefully no one stole it already!

“Take me to the 508” first words I said to my Uber driver as I got in. We talked about you, how we met, how much I cared about you, it was such an exciting and thrilling moment, my heart is racing typing this right now. I knew what I wanted, it was you, there was no two ways about it. I know it was going against everything that anyone would have told me, but I love you, I wanted to be with you, I wanted more than anything to spend every moment with you (good thing I played it cool though 🙂 ). I walked in and saw your smile and melted instantly, there was nothing anyone could have done at that moment to tear me away from you because my soul was holding on too tight. Of course our epic night was cut short, but it didn’t matter, I went home that night with a smile ear to ear. I could barely sleep thinking about seeing you that next evening. That was the last first kiss of my life.

Clue 5: your last stop is up next, it’s big, its bronze, and it catches butts not balls.

Target field! We have taken huge steps from that evening at 508 till today, and I see us only growing closer together. We have made many memories at so many amazing places (our parents places, St. Cloud, Wahpeton, Fargo, Guthrie, hwy 94 in general J). It has been these memories that have made us who we are today, helped us grow and become more than just a couple, but a true partnership. We don’t simply have each other’s backs, we are them. We support and lift up the other always. Your love for me makes me feel special every day, so this Easter egg hunt was a small way for me to show you my appreciation for all you do for me. So thank you for being sweet on me each and every day. You know what, come to think of it we don’t seem to have any memories on the other side of those gates *look at me as I point at the gates* So we will be back to check Target Field of our list of memorable location in 35 short days when they play the tigers on April 30th! I am ready to make more memories how about you?

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Next to me.

So time apart is hard, this internship of Jayme’s is killer for us. I have posted several pictures of FaceTime screenshots and talked about 197 mile drive between us. But it is Easter break and Jayme is in our bed, in our home, where she belongs, and it feels amazing. I awoke today feeling more rested then ever. With energy I left this morning leaving the stove on (which she turned off) and in such a great mood, because I knew after the day was done I would be coming back home to my love.
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Jayme was going to take her day off and help her sister with a little cleaning, run some errands, and take care of a few appointments, which would mean she wouldn’t be around to message ALL DAY with me, a fact I forgot when I got to work and wrote the below message.
“So I pulled up FB today out of habit, and started typing you a message then remember you are not sitting at a computer patiently waiting for your babe, but since I had it open already maybe you deserve a little maple in your morning, so here it goes. I love you Jayme, I love you in a completely cheesy romantic comedy movie kind of way. the way that you see people fawning over and desiring in their lives. I love you so uncontrollably that I find myself wanting to burst into conversation with strangers about how happy I am and how great my girlfriend is. I love you so personally that no one in the world will be able to understand the depth of that love expect me and you. I love you so fiercely that I am willing to expound all that I have to bring you the smallest of joys. I love you so wholly that every bit of you, even the things you don’t particularly like, those things make you, you and something that I love without end. But above all that I love you so absolutely, which is why I know I want you to be with me forever, by my side, through the hard times, the goofy times, the fun times, the stressful times, all the times.
I still sent it to her (I mean how couldn’t I, it was pretty great) but what I enjoyed the most about writing it was knowing that all of those things I feel for her, she feels back for me. Jayme, thank you for the gift of your love, you overwhelm me with it.

Sunday Morning Pancakes

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This isn’t about an actual occurrence, but more so about traditions. Me and Jayme love talking about our future together, it is one of our favorite topics. We day dream about a lot of things, a wedding, trips together, buying and remodeling a house, raising a family, all things that are off in the distance. One things that always seems to be present in all of the different topics we discuss is the idea and value in establishing something firm, absolute, and unique (oh and dogs, she keeps saying the more I say no the greater the number of dogs gets, sorry back to topic).

The idea of having traditions for us is a way to connect the past and the present with the future. A way to making sure that what is important, remains and endures no matter what. We each have traditions independent of eachother right now, but as we grow together, we become intertwined. But we also want to establish our own, things that are special to us. At this point you might be thinking that I am going to say we are wanting to have pancakes every Sunday morning as a family, no matter what, and you would be half right. Yes that sounds great, a special breakfast lounging in robes, watch cartoons, having coffee, enjoying laughs and our 7 dogs, but it is more about that idea of having something that makes sure we stay grounded in each other and the love we have. Tradition is not meant to be laborious or a challenge, it should be effortless and liberating, something you can always count on to be there for you. Jayme to me is that in a person, but we want to establish that together in events, locations, acts.

I am excited to see the day Jayme finally sees this post. Maybe by this time we will have established a new tradition, maybe we will be eating pancakes every Sunday together. But until then, our tradition of talking about traditions will have to do 🙂

Photos from last week/weekend, your general cuteness snaps and an obligatory team photo at my Sister-in-law’s birthday. We so cute 🙂 that girl is the love of my life.

 

 

FARtoGO

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Before I start with some really cute and romantic stuff… lets be honest, that is one sick title for a blog post…. okay done basking in my great play on words, lets get to the business of  L O V E.

Another week apart completed, it was capped off with an amazing weekend with no plans that resulted in an amazing time together. we were able to explore the city of Fargo (do you get it now) during the St. Patrick’s day festivities. Pub crawl in college bars, a fancy distillery, dodging through a parade, and an impromptu stay in a hotel all were in line.  But that isn’t the real story behind this weekend, no the real story is what was underneath that all.

When you love someone, I mean really love someone, in a visceral sense, you will go anywhere with them and feel right at home. So whether we were sitting in a booth, walking on the street, grabbing a hot-n-ready, I always felt that I was home in a city I had never been to. I learned that my home is mobile and I couldn’t be happier.

With hangovers in hand, we headed home and cuddled the Sunday away watching movies and talking about a future together. Sunday lead to Monday and another 5:30 am departure time to arrive to work on time, and a long day there I was ready to be home in my big comfy bed. the only problem? my bed and home are two different places, so I opted for another 197 mile trip for two more hours at home, instead of the bed.

 

 

Lose yourself, find us

If you had

One shot

or one opportunity

to seize everything you ever wanted

would you capture it?

Or just let it slip?

This are lines from a song that me  and Jayme bonded to early on in our life together. We would drive in the car and just rap our little hearts out. We have gotten really good at it, I mean like epically good. so good we recorded our own version driving to my mom’s house. Check out the video here!

But one thing I have been thinking about recently it the idea of losing yourself to find us. The concept that, to become a couple means the single you needs to change. I don’t mean in a codependent sense, but to be so completely intertwined in each others life, that your identity is tangled up in the other person. vines
I realize this idea sounds constricting, binding, almost weight-bearing, but when that person you are bound to is the love of your life, that feeling is comforting and strengthening. Much like two vines that lean on each other for support. alone they would wilt and fall, but together, they are able to draw on each other in the good times and the bad.

While it hasn’t been easy, me and Jayme have become an us, and nothing could make me happier. sure it results in sacrifice and change, (RIP farting in bed) but the juice has definitely been worth the squeeze.

There is a saying, that someone who gives up freedom for security deserves neither, but in my mind someone willing to give up themselves to find us, deserves both.